Its really scary that the major exams are nearing in about a month and prolly less since its starting late Oct , sweet baby Jez . I dont know why but I cant seem to concentrate , sit down and get started . The rest are already mugging like 24/7 . I have friends who tweet about their progress in studies but me ? I compare myself with them and often questioned myself what have I done , anything productive like them ? .. but the answers were always the same . Then again , I am thankful for some people (sweet sweet dearie people who care for me) who tried all means to motivate me to get started etc . Funny , how some even placed bets on my results (good luck uh) , strike a fucking ossum deal (my close friends will know) , and a fucking good bet (shan't reveal since its personal so quit wondering ) but sadly i dont think i'll be able acheive such standard given my ability now and how I go about my everyday life , I'm seriously lagging way way behind and I cant seem to foster good relationship with the books , well not anymore ): Partly becos I still think that I have all the time in the world . But Hell No , like i've said upteen times Time waits for no man . I really dont know what I want , I mean its there , I just have to push myself a little more like everybody's doing . I am at a loss like something's holding me back . Or is that just another excuse to not force myself to get started . I wonder . Maybe ... Maybe I just need some words of encouragement coming out from your mouth ..
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