Everlong

I just had a sudden change of mood . Felt so motivated wanting to complete my homeworks by today . Look @ the time now its 1am and not even 1 mock paper's completed ! I self quarantined today @ home becuz yeah my bro showed signs of fever and he was at butter the other night yada yada . so yeah stayed home all day , and the telly kept flashing news of Farrah Fawcett and MJ's death :/ OK I guess im still in a state of seriuz shockness ! It's a great loss in the entertainment industry . First was Farrah Fawcett next MJ both on same day somemore (but the thing is Farrah's death was expected cuz she had cancer but for MJ totally unexpected!). Their deaths are making the media busy i guess ? lets wait for tomorrow's newspaper report aye ?

I pamper myself alot these days . So much for " I know my limits " . Sometimes i really h8 myself , knowing i wont be able to accomplish certain things but still die die dont wanna admit instead brag about how different I can be from the rest and " I know my limits " BABY JEZ THATS LIKE THE WORST SENTENCE EVER SAID . That sentence almost made me to lose control over one of my cards . I shall be free from self quarantine tomorrow and enjoy myself till my eye pops jaw drops , I deserve one more day of pleasure , after the hols will be the start of my doom days . God bless me plz . Really hate it when the hols a gonna be over . I cant wait for school and cant wait to flunk my test too . haahaah .

On a side note , I feel soo .. soooo .. beyond description ... like there's so many questions left unanswered, all just drifting around like in space . The same ol thoughts just keeps running in my head . I ask myself why? why why why why why why?the answers never came.