Just so you know I've been updating in this space Elusivefaith ^^

All the same

I live in a impenetrable bubble of my own, I don't know how to let anyone in . I don't know how to communicate anymore and I can't help but to shut myself from people including those who tried to reach help to me . Don't feel too good about it. Need a perfect tourniquet to stop me from getting into deeper thoughts . It isn't healthy .

Birthday boys

This one damn cute! One of Jaq's pressie for him!





The whole fish n co. celebrated his bday, big shot right?



I love the people ^^

This is a super late birthday post, IKR i am sucha lousy friend after so many weeks then post ): But you can't blame me cos all these people bdays are one week after another , I swear I was draining out everyday fatigue plus I had tests to deal with ): So anyway, I know he had a blast on his birthday , a day filled with surprises one after another. Happyboi ah ! hehe ..



Went over to ZL house at 12 midnight to surprise him but apparently we got carried away talking about heaven and hell that we forgot our "mission" fo the night. But we were on time, I think? He was super shocked! okay so after school we had dinner nearby , cos we felt like eating zi char. I still can't believe this is the first time Zawoo's eating chilli crab . CAN YOU ? LOL

oh well, Happy birthday brudders! (L) XOXO

Prince of Wales

Huishannn ^^ (L)








They got similar flower pin ! How kyuttee !

Jeremy and huishan




Taken quite some time back @ prince of wales , @ Jeremeeee's workplace. nicee but of all location little india .. huahuahua ~ Jagerbomb and rum with ginger ale for that night oh and a little teeny weeny bit of beer from the bros luvluv . After that , teochew porridge for supper at Bukit Timah (Y)

Holland V

Caught up with Ariel and Jolie , had vietnamese food for dinner then chilled out at a very nice dessert place at the corner of Holland V , ambience is totally perfect for chilling out . Jo and I felt damn nua after that , decided not to meet the guys and head home to sleepy sleep sleep ...

Traris'es day

Dinner @ Tony Roma's , the ribs is damn awesome , its definitely a must try ! eeeheehe . Look at the amount of food we ordered , the whole table looks like we're having a buffet thanks to birthday boy's treat ! ^^ So long never see them bradders , they said I'm still as S L O W as ever . Think I got seriuz brain retardation cannot be cured forever ): sobs . They went drinking after that but I didn't tag along cos of damnnnz exams the following day . Cabbed home with the girls instead . mehh~

-______-" I was just about to hit the done button but I stupidly cancelled the whole chunk that I wrote don't know if it's me or what but I find it super hard to type with iPhone. K moving on, I feel damn detached from the cyberworld even though yes I use the laptop everyday but for school purpose only and nothing else k maybe twitter and fb. Been rather packed withy schedule , birthdays after birthdays to celebrate and prepare surprises for the most important people and they are the ones that cracks me up even when I am on the verge of tearing. will update with those pictures soon !! Also school is being a bitch draining the fuck outta me. What made it worse is the screwed up tests dates which was going on a month and timing for some modules sucked. But thank god it's finally over! Now I can replenish all my sleep! Of course planning out a list of activities cos it's the festive season hehehhee ^^ k I feel damn insecure watching my bby playing soccer with his doods and i got phobia of getting hit by balls I always kena everytime one ): but not when I'm playing la that's a different story already. Till next time then xoxo !

Birthdays on the 10th of Noveeeembahhh

This is gonna be a long birthday post for the people I (L). Not a very expressive person but I’ve figured that if I keep everything inside I might not ever get the chance to let them know how important they are to me and I know how it feels like missing the opportunity to tell someone you love them and that you did not take them for granted.

So 10th November marks the birth date of many people I know and love, my uncle who have groomed me up showering me with father love I have lost while growing up and so much more to add to this list. But i don't think there's a need to since I don't think he's able to read it.LOL

Next up, Happy birthday Neosy ! Sucha sweet friend of mine never fails to make me laugh at his loud voice and silly actions. He is such a good friend with father qualities , always showering all of us with his fatherly love, he kept things like tissues and umbrella which a girl should bring in his bag like a doraemon (I don't even bring a tissue out needless to say an umbrella ella ella eh eh). Always there to support me when I'm down, blabbering nonsense , wasted , or feeling whiny and cheer me up with his lame logics but does make sense in a neosy theory. ^^ oh yeah~ I didn't forget the times when we were in class, so much joy to have him around. He's like my competitor in physics class for 2 solid years, competing for the second place from the back in class ! But in the end it was pointless cos we both got the same fail grade for O's. LMAO. But that's not the only funny thing, I still remember I causing him and zl to be punished in class and have to do like what ? 50 push ups or prolly more ? hahahhaha. Hope you liked the present ^^ (L)

Lastly, Happy birthday to 2 of my cousins from my maternal side and Juleana. X)

Thank god for them ^^
Happy birthday to all ! cheers ! :D
Love always XOXO , stephanie

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you'll say that your fears of being in a relationship is caused by phobia , phobia of being hurt. Truth is, many people are victims when it comes to love. People are bound to get hurt in this game. We all know it is difficult to prevent hurt that's why we would rather not try it out.

So what if you have been ditched badly? To me, I believe that someone better might come along. (and that was what happened to me (L) ^^) And if that someone better happened to be just like your previous then it just goes to show that he's just another jerk and you guys are not compatible.

And when there is no capatibility between the two, it is useless , no matter how hard you try to salvage it. Sad but true. There will still be love but how much of that would be left in time to come? I guess , compatibility and commitment is what scares people the most. I often get scared of all these too, especially the compatibility part. It's like the most basic that couples need to be compatible, I'm not just saying the characters/personality have to be compatible I guess somehow looks matters too.

I found this very wordy blog draft of mine which was typed way back then in 2009. Decided to publish it to the public now haha . kinda lame though, sooo last year but I think it doesnt matter anyhowz !

I wonder if you're still here, will I still be accused of being a problem child ?